OPTSotD-Julien Baker

I’m staying in tonight
I won’t stop you from leaving
I know that I’m not what you wanted
Am I?
Wanted someone who I used to be like
Now you think I’m not trying
I don’t argue, it’s not worth the effort to lie
You don’t want to bring it up
And I already know how it looks
You don’t have to remind me so much
How I disappoint you
Suggest that I talk to somebody again
That knows how to help me get better
And till then I should just try not to miss any more
Appointments
I think if I ruin this
That I know I can live with it
Nothing turns out like I pictured it
Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases
I think if I fail again
That I know you’re still listening
Maybe it’s all gonna turn out alright
And I know that it’s not, but I have to believe that it is
I have to believe that it is
I have to believe that it is
(I have to believe it, I have to believe it)
I have to believe that it is
(Probably not, but I have to believe that it is)
And when I tell you that it is
Oh, it’s not for my benefit
Maybe it’s all gonna turn out alright
Oh, I know that it’s not, but I have to believe that it is

10 thoughts on “OPTSotD-Julien Baker

      1. I’ve had some serious struggles. I’m in a good place right now and I’ve finally accepted some things. I’m getting lots of help and my family has been super supportive. I’ve missed you dude

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      2. I’m soooo glad to hear about the support thing!! My brother’s doing better too…and I’m currently chatting with another old friend who would relate to some of this!
        I’ve missed you too!!

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